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[ He wants to say I didn't think I would die, which is true. He thought it would be rough and close, but that he would make it back to her, if worse for wear, and didn't want his creatures in the cross-fire. He wants to counter with I cared for Credence, too, though he didn't know the boy as well as Tina. He wants to mention all the ways he's been hurt before, leaving him unable to trust her easily. So, he listens and waits until she's finished.

But he cares for Tina more than he wants any of that. ]

Tina, I don't want to go off on my own, I don't want to do something foolish and leave you — I want to be with you. Now. Here. [ wow. that sounds more intimate than he intended. ] Can we go back a bit? Please?

[ to before they were yelling and tensing and feeling too much. ]

[ Tina sucks in a breath all but glaring at the screen. Her heart racing in her chest its betrayal; She doesn't want to care as much as she does about his wellbeing, but she does. And he doesn't seem to get that. This would all be better if she never bothered with this device to begin with.

She doesn't linger on any implication in his words just as she hadn't her own before answering more sharply than she intends to: ]

What is it then?

[ He looks at her, winded and wounded, for a long moment, as he searches for the words to explain his feelings. ]

I'm sorry. For not trusting you then. For running. [ a minute for that to sink in. ] At the start of this conversation, I only hoped to tell you what I was thinking and what I wanted to do — to avoid leaving you out of things, if you can believe that. [ unlike when he did run and assumed she was like most Americans, particularly those working for MACUSA. ] But I'm not good at this.

[ One might think he means arguing or explaining himself but he means people, full-stop. ]

It's not like you aren't the only one.

[Her response it's pointed. It's clear to anyone which of the Goldstein sisters is the more people friendly one.] I trust you, Newt. You're the only one I do around here-- [It's true and earnest.] But I don't think just trusting anyone we meet will do us any good. Just look at Mr. Graves.

[That is, Percival Graves had been her boss-- had a hand in training her at one point-- and who they thought was the second in command of MACUSA was someone else entirely. Truth be told, she didn't trust so easily before, she doesn't trust more easily now. Especially with some of the reactions she's seen.]

[ Newt has his suspicions about Mr. Lupin, ones that amplify his desire to connect. Those scars...but it's not his place to voice such thoughts, not about something so personal. ]

I've trusted people who — perhaps I shouldn't have trusted. [ the wording's jumbled and ends up being more noncommittal than he intended. Oh, Leta. ] But I trust you, too, Tina. You're the only one.

[ and that's enough for now, though he intends to broach the topic again eventually. ]

[She sighs in response.] You know I'll help you.

[She said it once before, earlier, but it seems prudent to say now. As long as he wasn't breaking any laws for foolish reasons she would always help. Her shoulders sag with the words and she gives a small shake of her head all the same.]

Thank you.

[ He sighs, too, tension seeping from his shoulders. This experience is taking its toll on them, isn't it? ]

I'm lucky to have met you.

[She flusters too easily at these particular kind of words, but she's far from used to them. Queenie is the only one who'd say such a thing, and even they needn't-- They knew they loved each other, they had no reason to defend it all the time.

It's unexpected, as is most of his trust and kindness to her.]

Now what's got you saying something like that, eh?

[ He might say because we're good together or because you push me to be better, if he could find the words to do so. Instead, he only smiles privately, looking down.

Finally: ]

You, of course.

[ what else is he supposed to say, porpentina goldstein!! this has been an emotional roller coaster!! ]

[Why are you like this!!!

She can't keep her features plain like this and she wonders why anyone would want to use video to talk-- It's as nervewracking as in person. Biting down on her lower lip, she tucked her hair behind her ear before answering:]

I certainly don't know about all of that.

[Given she just yelled at him and all.]

Well, good thing I know, then.

[ He attempts eye-contact, expression turning hopeful. ]

I'll see you soon? [ the statement lifts at the end, questioning. ]

[ They're okay now, aren't they? ]

Yes, I suppose so.

[Her answer is earnest at least, even if she'll feel too flustered for some time.]

Goodbye for now, Tina.

[ He's going to cuddle Eleanor until he recovers. ]

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